Cass’s Blog

This is a story about a gal who named “Y”. after all she misses her so much. how in love could she be. to be wif someone who is older den her and most important tht gal is str8.

She honestly feel like crying out wen “K” finally nodded yes and though the relationship is being underground. But “Y” never feel ever happier den the way she is now. I can see tht spark in her eyes. She wakes up every morning, look into the mirror and tell herself to work harder everyday. she wants to earn more and more money to the extend whr she could buy anything to please “K”.

though “K” never did ask much, but then “Y” everyday taking sending her lunch as an excuse jst to see her lil angel for a few mins. wen she finally tk her guts to ask “K” did she loves her… “K” gave her a positive answer which “Y” long to hear for so long. she never knws tht answer kept her smiling thru the rain.

but then happy moment never always thr for her. “K” finally gives “Y” a cold shoulder again. “Y” did not knw where she did wrong.. She was hoping “K” would tell her.. but as usual, thr will be no reply.

“K” do u knw, she missed u alot till the extend where she dun feel like eating nor sleeping and keeping herself awake to receive msges from u.. she really loves u. miss u.

signing off,

Genesis

I couldnt believe wen someone u tend to love the most fail u the most…

She droves all the way after work jst to see u as she misses u. trying to get u the chocolates u tend to say u loved. thought tht would makes u happy even a lil seeing u being stressed at work and busy lately… She never in return do wish for anything in return jst a smile upon ur face…

but to her dissapointment, ” I m wif my staff. i dint receive ur msg also. how I knw?” tht hurt her alot. Well, least if the answer is ” maybe i meet u in car park after this?” would be even better eh? i mean wert on earth.. rushes all the way thru the jammed and dis is the return.. well, blame it on her being stupid cos she loves u. blame it cos she is naive in hoping on u. blame it cos she is a completely fool. whom tend wanted to be thr for u wen u in need of help.

blame it on the foolish fool. as she will never ever ever will do anymore. here I am to be in between to tk cr of her and will be making sure tht she will be ok and letting u off her damn idiotic mind. forget it. one min u r making her happy and de other u r killing her. so wert for??

Loving my new blog spot.. I am now doing my blogging in dis add

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for those who cares or those who wan2 knws more about my daily life. Welcome. lolx.. nay actually its also a good way my frens for far away knws hw am I. aint tht so??

I haven gt a nice sleep and rest for the pass few weeks. Infact i am getting out of my social life cycle.. guess wert..I am doing pretty fine.

though its boring sometimes. Going and back from work the same old time… but yet i couldnt wait to get my trip on Pulau Redang wif those ppls.. LOLx.. i hope everything goes well till then… Oh how i wish Val will get drunk… lolx den i wan2 dunk her face into the toilet bowl.. I am bad!!!! i knw tht long ago. But it will be fun. To go out wif them as a fren wif no borders….=p

I wan2 get some rest soon. been having this bone probs wif me lately. I cant bend down nor sit stil or even stand long sometimes. It hurts till I almost bried de other day. i dun wan2 go for the doc right nw. I knw i will need to waste lotsa money again..

cant afford tht by this moment. sighz…

GUess wert I have my very own blogger now lolx

http://beneathdarkshadesofclouds.blogspot.com/

Geez.. after came back from Klang last night I headed down to Enigma.. Drank not alot but ok ok la.. lolx. got home straught away no energy to get up and den fall asleep.. till around 3 i woke up a while.. after replying a few msges, i get back to sleep.

Till 9 pm.. Cynthia told me its already 9 are u gonna continue sleeping till tomoro? =P to be honest I rarely get some sleep dis few weeks. but if i could i would rather just stay on bed till the next month. lolx.

Tought of meeting up Jo for a cake. but then i guess she is busy as ever, wif her recording. Wert to do.. after that thougth of going out wif meow and janet thy all. Wen mom wen I am done wif my mom talking and telling me about her trip meowjust say she dun wan 2 go anymore. Janet told me Meow got angry. I was like whatever lerrr…. its only only she is being ill, me myself too.. plus i havent eat at all. so fine, beside she has her own frens to go out wif.

Call myself jealous of shit, I neither do care anymore. Its the same thing happen in human nature like I say before ppl comes and go.. I am going off. frens are like tht. Will never stick up to u wen thy have no beneficial. Looks who is talking . hahahaha… me myself I do not knw hw to communicate well. So fark it all. I dun care.

as long i have my carrer, i dun think thr is any reason for me to get upset wif. time wen ppl out for fun wasting money I am learning from mistake and earning.

I do not wan2 waste my time getting to no where. Oh God, wertever I am crapping its my lashes.. Call me Emo I admit everyone has it within them.

Wen to “Dai Ma” wif Selly and her sis ==” after that v head to KL and ronda ronda.. I teach Selly how to drive. To my suprising, she is way a better driver then her sis. My God, I think She almost killed some crosser by. Well different thing in Selly she remain col and relax and drive my car as if she drove it lotsa times.

wishing and hoping she will pass her lisence real soon. hahaha.. that time I will dump my car to her and ask her be my driver. Fetch me here and there.. Thinking on catching movie wif her tomoro. But i guess she will be still asleep.. Lan sui chu…

But if she dun sleep wert else cans he do eh. better then she keeps running here and there wasting money..

Tomoro going to SS24 wan2 get some cheese cake. the other day get there but dint buy at all.. Do she like cheese cake???

emmmmmmm

Sleep 1st den think later la.. Dun wan2 use my brain for now… But i wan2 watch “Marley and Me”…(T.T)

Today I finally see something I shouldn have. Str8 away I lost mood. How could u hide? Fire can never be wrap by paper. Sonner or later I will find out.. I knw it already….

Its all a lie. Sorry for being stupid. Sorry for being paranoid. Sorry for me being me.

But its time now, I learn to tk things as it is. I shall never ever look back anymore.

Thou shalt known better tht thou shalt not see a smile upon my face for thee. If thou think I am easily won, thou got it wrong.

My candle burn from two end. U can hurt me as much as u wan. but never make me feel hopeless in grief. Cos by tht time, I will nt turn back.

Well, after eagerly craving for cakes in 2 am in the morning.. Guess wert me and JO both nonsense people went and do cake hunt.Hunting for a place to eat cake 2 am. lolx. thinking and wishing that there is a place for me and my lovely partner to have a slice of cake.

However, wen v r done wif everything its almost 4 am. If dimsum I knw where i can get lerr… but then cake.. hmmm.. thinking on going to hotel lounge and see if thy have it. but too bad.. its 4 am for heaven sake..

We went to damansara for a try. We found it. guess where. In a mamak stall. Ice cream cake. i take green tea while Jo took cookies and cream… yum yum..

We were like.. 2 physco sitting down eating ice cream cake in cold weather.. but we enjoy and every each moments.. *wink*

Today i woke up very early. lolx. Around 8 am i woke up a dy. Well, thinking and worrying about my “saman”.. cos today need to renew roadtax bt my ticket nt paid yet. lolx. Worry till cant sleep.

But then i manage to leave a note to let mom knw the truth. lolx. so she is nt tht angry lerrrr…

Ngam Ngam 11.40am she called me wake up. GILER!!!! summore dare to say 11.45am. EARLY 5 MINS lerrrr…thought can manage to reach before she reaches. mana tau she is 5 mins earlier then me!!!! suprisingly she cook today. just a simple sandwich wif egg,ham and sausage. well of cos wif bread as well. Sandwich witout bread??!!! wert on earth am I talking about?

Went she say one for me and one for her I was like…. hmmmmm….can this be eaten??lolx!! but somehow I am happy la. She cook for me ma.. mana boleh say dun wan! so busy wake up also still cook for me.. XD

Wen i have the 1st bite, erm… it tasted sweet. its nt cos she cook for me. I think she dunno added wert in the bread or egg. Sorry la, maybe its nt my type.lolx. cos I never like tomato sauce or Chilli sauce on my bread. no matter wert it contains. I guess she dint knw. lolx. So i still eat even though the sausage over cook and as well as the ham. but then no harm geh… lolx

So thinking now… will i get to eat again? =p

Today finish work at 7am.. lolx, den go ahead to tan yew lai pickup her sis. And den we headed to Sepang, Princess Haliza CAmp. Nearly got acciedent cos to tired to drive..

Wen i reach its about 9am.. From the voice from da phone I knw she was crying. I told her sis but her sis doesn believe. LOLx.. bt wen I saw her from far away.. she wasnt really in tears.. once she saw me she was like crying.. start away she hugged me tight.. yeah i knw. she will missed her frens over thr. but I think its time to let her learn its human nature. No one will be by ur side till forever. thy leave one day. Just as one day I will leave her as well…

Den I saw Xin Nee.one of her fren she intro me to.. lolx.. thy cry again la…da whole process ook about 5 mins or so? den she asked me to help her wif the bags. I mean c’mon la. if u dun ask also I knw la. den she intro her sis to her comander, and den she intro me as her gf. lolx.

Back to puchong, her mom ask me for a breakfast wif them. Then thinking tht Me and her heading to sunway after tht. So I am thinking of why nt..And den ended up wen having breakfast, the boss of the cafe asked who am I.. her mom answer ” god daughter” I was like harh??? I am damn blur tht moment. lolx.

Den since the cafe is opposite her house her mom and sis force me to go up and tk a nap before going out again. I went thinking tht its only gonna be an hour or so.. since i am heading to sunway later. So from sleeping in the living room. I ended up being kick to sleep in her room. lolx. then Selly complain, saying tht how come went i sleep her mom on air cond for me and sort of. She dun even have it. lolx.

Darling, I am a guest ma.. wert do u expect?

Ended up me and her sleeps like a pig. Both piggies!!! untill almost 5 i only woke up. I woke her up telling her its already 5. she got shock. lolx.. den ended up we dint manage to get to sunway. I guess tomoro perhaps..

Den i get home and fall back asleep till nw. I have to get ready to work. Been thinking if she is already awake or nt… hmmmm